im hurting inside...

 

this excellent guy has made me cry today..haha..i know its sound funny but its true..its been a while since i did cry over a man..now,im so sure that im not normal..i think my fangirl mood has turned into bloody stupid love towards this guy..hahaha..he is so happy when with one of his bommie,his artis-friend..hurmm..seriously it hurt..huhu..ok,this is a stupid entry but i still wanna write whats inside me.. :p

migraine...!

ok..ak mmg ada migraine..sejak dr form 2 lgi..masalahnye skang ni kan,skang ni boleh kate setiap ari ak kena attack ngn migraine..ak pun tak tau la pasal ape???ak ni coffee lover,ak terpaksa buang sume perasaan syg terhadap kopi semata2 migraine ak ni..takpela..ak taknk sakit..so mmg patut ak bunuh cintaku pada kopi..hurmm..but then,skrg ni makin melampau2 plak tau tak migraine ni..ak pun tak paham!ak tak paham sgt!!hurmm..ak benci sakit kepala ari2 ni..mcm da bleh agak da bile nak kena migraine ni..time ptg2 jam 3 smpai mlm..ermm..benci!!benci!!

>.<!!!

Dont go home! v >.< v

My obsession!

Don't go home baby~ I have a present here for you
Don't go home today baby ye~ To be honest I'm not used to it either
Sweetheart

TOP
A-Yo Turn It Up I hate this awkward atmosphere
Was the clock's needle always this loud?
I only hear the sound of saliva going down my throat. What should I say?
Look baby, I only want to greet the morning with you
Before this night passes, our own secret party
But you like Cinderella want to go home when the clock hits 12
Lonely nights are long, callin' up your parents
I act strong but it bothers me, S.O.S there's no progress
Oh wait a second why am I like this? Am I drunk, I'm getting dizzy, I'm falling asleep

Chorus
Don't go home baby~ I have a present here for you
Don't go home today baby ye~ To be honest I'm not used to it either
Sweetheart

GD
In the smooth sounds of music, an armful of red roses Ooh~

TOP
You're going home tomorrow anyway, It's late it might be dangerous dear
No there's no other meaning, I'm just worried about you, Yeah what if someone kidnaps you
This long long night night, a party of enchanting stars
Nothing can stop this, This feeling of becoming one, Stop right there

GD
Hey I can't let you go, I can't be separated from you, don't fight it

Chorus
Don't go home baby~ I have a present here for you
Don't go home today baby ye~ To be honest I'm not used to it either
Sweetheart

TOP
Baby take my hand, Don't be afraid me, Just stay together

GD&TOP
It's the first time since I've met you, your family is strict so I'm scared but excited
Phone on vibrate, a bad sign, Bell goes ding dong, a signal to escape bingo
I need to give her assurance, so I can convince her with a believable excuse
The prettiest fiance in the world, with you on that green field
I'm usually wild, but I'm soft. I can't say anything I can't take responsibility for
Girl you know what I mean, it's hard to explain this, but these are needless words
Dim the lights, our eyes meet
And slightly open those tightly shut buttons, mouth dries, and lock the door

Chorus
Don't go home baby~ I have a present here for you
Don't go home today baby ye~ To be honest I'm not used to it either
Sweetheart

Bridge
Ah~ ah~ in this night where everyone has fallen asleep, I hate being alone
Ah~ ooh~ ah~ hiding in that moonlight, I whisper sweet nothings

love love love..

ok..walaupun sadly,im not in love right now,im wanna talk about love...ok..

love tu ape??

danggg!

hahaha..love for me is all about complementing two person and combining two souls became 1..

dlm dunia ni ada byk movie and drama kan?byk jgk pasal love ni..so,we can see or hear people said :

'alaa,tu sume dlm cite je'

'mcm la ada pun org camtu dlm dunia sebenar ni'

often said n heard sentences!huhu..

for me,i do believe stories in drama2 n movie2 do exist..coz i have thousand,ok,not thousand!but like,many examples around me that are exactly like those couples in the drama n movie..

one of the example is my parents..in this example,i wanna tell u guys that big difference in age is no problem at all..my dad was on the standard 1 when my mom was born..hehehe..the 6 years differences actually can be seen through my childish mommy and my daddish daddy...hahaha..i love them!i really respect my dad coz he totally can handle my mom..my mom was exactly like me.in fact the shopping urge i got from her..but she still can get it in control which is none like me.. =p

the other example is like in the movie called He just not that into you!

in the movie,the best part is when Gigi was told by Alex that if Gigi heard about any miraculously strange love story,they are all the exception while ordinary story is the rules..i love that part so much..i dunno why but somehow i think thats true..huhu..i wanna be the exception so badly,but afterall i am the rule!huhu..but never mind..

the first example taken was a friend of my cousin..this girl was a huge girl mix with pakistan or something with dark brown skin..i mean,she is normal girl,not extraordinary or wat,just normal n simple..yet,she is married to a gorgeous guy..model like guy,handsome,macho and all that it takes to be a perfect looked guy!hahaha..see?miracles do exist..they are happily living together now..even though,my cousin said that during their wedding,badmouth people are so jealous and keep saying stuff like they arent perfect match at all..macam langit and bumi..sedih siot when i heard that..nape?kalo pompan tu tak lawa,n the guy was extremely hot,they cant fall into something so beautiful called LOVE??silly minded people!huhu..

the second example is my friend..dont need to mention the name,but she is cute..supercute..she is like me,the same size..huhu..she is lucky coz selected to be the exception when got this hot guy with good looks and model-like body already had a job in hand plus BMW car..so cool rite?he loves her and thats can be seen so clearly..totally understanding..i was so jealous but at the same time i pray for them too..being an exception is a gift,not something that we can simply ask n get!huhuhu..

n me??

i dont have love story yet..all tak berjawab!hahaha..nevermind..i believe in Allah..Allah know what best for me..one thing in mind,i want a guy that cna protect me whenever i need protection..the one i always pray for in my prayer..the one that so sure i am for him now n hereafter..

dear my love,my knight...im here waiting for u..do find me n make me yours..

im right here waiting.. <3

perfect?hurmm...

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing 

You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me...

Aku seorang XXXL!

ni ak!

ok..fat..motty...montel..its all synonim..n thats what describe me..yeah,me..

this post isnt abt fat..or abt losing weight..its abt me!yeah..again..me!

i was born in a family with big traits..i can prove it..my dad,my sisters,my uncles,my cousins..we are all big size..none of us wear 32 n below jeans size..i dont blame genetics all the times,but i do blame it sometimes..its just,i dunno..im not going to say like 'whats wrong being fat'?'cant i just be myself'?

because its totally wrong..being fat means u r keeping ur death near u..i mean,not la that ajal can be put away or tggu jap..i mean,really,when u fat,u cant catch up the bus quickly,when u take few steps,u started to 'huh'huh'..i know coz im fat..people look at u like u r some kind or monster..i hate that..i hate when people look at me like that..im a normal girl who adore beauty..but i just can be beautiful as other people do..people that i like rejected me bcoz im fat..hurmm..im not crying of this fact..coz i know i still can make changes..changes!i hate changes..i cant tolerate changes well..ermm..one more thing is i urge to do something n easily forget..thats my prob!

Alkisah tercekik 2

ok..sy tahu sy da lama tak update blog ni..hehe..bukan ape..im on my way to get everything settled down in UMS for a new sem..rite now pun bru lepas weeding and bedding for new project sharefarm..penat seh!huhu..

sebenarnye,as the title of the post,hakikatnye,

AKU BUKAN TERCEKIK!

yeah,i know..i know..i did said SAH lg aritu..how do i know actually its my lingual tonsil yg bengkak..lingual tonsil is the other tonsil which located deep down near the vulva..n errrr..u can google it!hehehe..its all at ur finger tips..voila~hahaha...

so,alhamdulilah thank u Allah..i just need to gargle with ubat yg doc bg n some spray more..that really make it!huhuhu..

all i wanna say now is ALHAMDULILLAH!i love u,Allah..